Buka Puasa...

Yesterday aku acap pi buka sama kat mid valley n shopping raya after aku habis keje..kitorang mkn kat laksa shack..acap belanja buka..before buka aku sempat la pi shopping kt isetan..aku habis dalam RM 200.30sen jer...xla banyak sgt duit aku habis..lepas buka aku sempat pi buat pedicure..kesian acap kena tgg aku hbs wat pedicure..raya nie mestila nk cantik dr atas sampe bwh..

Aku sempat pose sebelum wat pedicure

aku rasa rilek sgt cuz aku duduk kat kerusi massage..

aku sampe umah dlm kol 11.00pm..aku check phone bai antar msg ajak lepak mcd cuz dia xpuas hati pasal kifi dh nikah awal thn..aku kol epa ajak lepak together..after shower bai dtg umah amik aku,kitorang lepak mcd setiwangsa..aku pun sebenarnyer xpuas hati gak pasal ifi..nak jadikan cerita aku kol ifi tny khabar..jawapan yg aku dapat ifi pregnat 6mnths..baby gal...bukan niat aku nk aibkan ifi tp tetiba jer antar ms dia dh nikah...bai yg stay sebelah umah pun xtau dia dh nikah..before this ifi balik capetown,africa cuz family tinggal sana n xkan balik sini...now yang tau ifi pregnant aku, bai, epa n mastura..acap sorry aku xbgtau smlm..aku tau ko akan baca blog nie..i'm so sorry..we all kenal ifi masa sekolah beza different class jer..

aku n epa ( classmate ifi aka ex bf ifi )

bai n mastura ( jiran baik ifi)

Happy Besday Mak..

Last saturday genaplah umur mak aku yg ke 50..as usual adik aku buat kek untuk mak..we all celebrate kat umah after buka puase..semua siblings mak aku pun dtg for celebrate accept usu ( adik mak yg bongsu)..usu tinggal kat kelantan so dia xdpt la nk dtg celebrate together..umah aku riuh rendah dgn hilai tawa anak buah aku..nak pengsan pun ada..xpayah panggil org lain umah aku mmg meriah dgn adik beradik n anak buah...

kek yg adik aku buat untuk mak

nie la mak aku..yg sebelah nie ika..anak buah aku yg paling lasak

cik zaini ( adik mak no 3) n sis aku no 5..dia br jer kuar wad cuz batuk darah..rambut dia mcm nie sbb dia wat kimotherapy masa dia kena brain tumour left n right..skang dia dah ok.

nie cucu mak n cucu mummy..yg lain tgh main bunga api kat luar

sis aku tgh tapau muruku utk rumah..yg lain tgh tunggu turn

dh sampe turn mummy ( kakak mak no 1 ) tapau muruku

sambil tapau sambil masuk mulut..sis aku n nenek tgk jer..

After semua dh balik aku , my bro n sis pi merayap pi backlane setiawangsa jln2..xbest langsung kat situ sbb xbenda yg nk bl utk raya...cukup membosankan..xpuas hati my bro call kwn dia ( anaz )tmn kitorang pi uptown danau kota,setapak..kitorang sampai sana dlm kol 1..habis shopping kol 4.30am...lama giler pi shopping..aku beli byk..abang aku yg excited shopping...kesian anaz kena tmn kitorang shopping...lepas hbs shopping kitorang sahur kat BJ Restaurant..dh hbs makan abang antar anaz..thank anaz tmn kitorang shopping..sampai umah kol 5.30am..punya la penat..dh cuci muka terus la aku tido kan..pagi nanti aku nk pi shopping lagi kat m.india wif my sister.

Superficial People……1 in every 5 of us!!!

Are people ever genuinely nice because they want to be? Are they ever kind without wanting something in return? Is it more often then it is rare that there are ulterior intentions involved? Here’s the thing…..people hardly ever do something nice simply because it feels good or because it may be the right thing to do. Most of the time, they act having the knowledge that a pot of gold awaits at the end of the rainbow. As much as most of us would like to believe that people are virtuous, there is honestly no such thing. Only the naïve will carry such faith with them, while the sly attempts to make his next scheme a reality.

Do first impressions actually count then? I used to think that they did, but never again will I make that error in judgment. I am raw in a lot of ways when it comes to meeting people. I’m always myself simply because that is the only person I know how to be. Be that as it may, in actual fact, people are never what they appear to be in the first instance. From experience, I have learnt that meeting someone for the first time, although exciting……should be handled with a great deal of caution.

Superficial people are overly concerned about what others think of them. They may be in constant denial, but when you observe them closely, you will find that they are weary of how much of themselves they unveil. For obvious reasons of course……they are terrified of being labeled for who they really are. So yes, for these people, how they appear in the eyes of others is truly important. They never say too much, but yet enough to convince. One of their many talents……..they will make you believe almost anything. And should something backfire, oh gosh, they will even make you think that’s it’s your fault.

They will be nice. They will tell you everything that you would love to hear, to the point that you begin to think you have so much in common with your new found somebody. They will make you happy and keep you company and do all the things that you longed for but never had the luxury of enjoying. They will constantly tell you how much they care, and should you be in disbelief, they even have ways of proving it. It would take a genius to get you to buy into this fallacy, but then again, why blame another for our own erroneous beliefs. So really, when you think of it, there is no real rationale behind being nice when all it gets you is a lifetime status of being a doormat!!! Allowing someone to walk all over you should never be an option. There will always be someone waiting to take advantage of you or the situation that you’re in. It cannot be avoided, but it can be handled with prudence.

I don’t have anything against these people…….in fact; I admire them for doing what needs to be done to get what they want. They don’t bear the brunt of their actions, but they sure do enjoy the benefits. The sad thing about it though is that they never stick around long enough to see the damage that they have brought about. As soon as they get what they want, they look for the easiest way out. Either that, or they give you reasons that make you believe you are the cause of your own pain. If only the tables were turned and we lived in a perfect world where people never took advantage of each other, it would all make sense once again. Wishful thinking!!!

So MucH BaD, nOt eNouGh gooD !!!

Instead of showing kindness, we illustrate dramatic cruelty. Love is much easier to reveal and yet we somehow choose hate in its place. A warm hug can express comfort, but we rather throw a violent fit. A smile may make the whole day bearable, but we frown to make it worse instead. Why is it easier to do all the bad things and not the good? Are people so afraid of getting hurt that they shield themselves with an amour of malevolence? The world is filled with so many ghastly events occurring as it is, that the last thing anyone needs is for one more nasty person.

I have come to meet so many people that aren’t who they appear to be and I am aware that this is customary. While they may all have ulterior motives, do they not realize that what they do onto others will be done onto them in ten folds? Are people so arrogant these days to assume that they can get away with murder without having to face the consequences? I honestly believe that such people have no conscience, and I say that simply because it would take a rather depraved individual to act the way he does, and still be able to be at peace with himself.

When you think about it, awful things happen mostly when people only think of themselves. I understand that being selfish is good once in while, maybe even necessary, but it all depends on the price attached to it. The thing is, you can be selfish and still show a little care and compassion for the other person. Simple, do what is best for yourself, but just don’t do it deliberately to hurt someone else.

No one will change because they are told to or because it may bring about good. Change can and will only occur when each person strives to better himself first. There will always be people who will be out to get you and make you feel worthless. They may even affect you to the point that you’re absolutely confused. It doesn’t matter really. Ultimately, it’s how you come out of such a situation is what matters the most.

LoVE LoSt..FrienD gOnE AsTraY

It’s always hard to lose someone dear to you. Sometimes the loss can be so devastating that you feel as if a part of you also tends to lose itself. Is it possible to recover from such a situation?

Over the years, I have lost so many people close to me. In fact, I have come to the point where I have lost track of the people that I still have in my life. Some were lost to cancer and others to so may other fatalities. With these losses, at least you have the assurance that the person will be led in by angels to a better unknown. The worst type of loss is having someone walk out of your life…..when you least expect it.

See, I have always been able to get over things pretty quickly. No, I am not heartless, but I just tend to grieve for a bit and then move on to something more constructive. But recently my greatest downfall was letting my guard down. Just by doing that, it has become impossible to move on. I feel like for the first time I have no shield to protect myself from the harsh reality of feeling pain and getting hurt.

A short time ago, I decided that I was going to take myself out of my friend’s life. I felt that it was the best, if not the right thing to do. But as soon as I uttered the words, I was guilt stricken by my very words and had the uncontrollable urge to reach out and take each word back. Too late! It had been said and I know why I said it. The reasons were so well thought off and if I took my words back, I would only be making matters worse. So I stood by my decision, and now I find that I am paying the price for it…….a very hefty price as well. I feel emptiness…..a void that was once filled by the best person that I had ever known

Will I ever win my friend back? Is there anything that I can say to make things right again? I know people say that the heart grows fonder with absence, but what if I have gone and done it this time and actually made a mess of things. I am filled with fear and the only thing that I have got out of this is that I really do need to start using my nugget before I do anything else. Whether it’s too late, I will never know. I may never see or speak to my friend again, but I do know that I will not make this mistake again. Lesson well learnt!!

Sometimes it’s truly hard to be a good friend. Tough decisions can often put a huge strain on the friendship. Everyone wants to be a friend and sometimes needs a friend, but no one is actually willing to accept the responsibilities attached to being a friend. Therefore, sometimes being a responsible, true friend…..the right thing to do is to just leave. In time, things will eventually find a way to work itself out, and when it comes to pass, a true friend will still be waiting at the of the road with welcoming arms.

RamaDhaN aL MubaRaK

To all my muslim friends..Ramadhan datang lagi...Selamat berpuasa..bulan yg memberi seribu makna dalam kehidupan seorang islam...di bulan yg mulia ini marilah kita mengerjakan solat sunat terawih..semoga ibadah kita di bulan mulia ini di berkati Allah Swt..serangkap pantun khas for my friends:

AnAk kEtA, BeLajaR bErjalaN
MaTaNyA TangGaL dGiGit LiPaN
SeLaMaT DaTaNg BuLaN RamaDhaN
SeLaMaT TiNgGal HaNtu daN sEtaN
SeLaMaT bERpuASa

p/s : Acap jgn lupa terawih bukan clubing k!!!